For the last few days, I have not been feeling like coding or learning. All I am ever doing is watching youtube, twitch and some movies. Then I occasionally browse reddit. Honestly, I don't think those things are negative in and of themselves, they are like any entertainment. However, ideally, I would like to have some desire to learn and code as well. Because I like doing those things, just these few days, desire for them has disappeared inside me. And the funny thing is, I don't know how to make it come back or anything. I guess we just wait till it comes back. In the meantime, I will watch youtube and stuff I guess.
Reason why I wait instead of pushing myself to do those things is that at the times I pushed myself before, my mental state did not treat me well. I pushed and got the things done a little bit earlier, sure. However, I felt extremely drained and burned out afterwards. So this time around, I will take it a little bit easier and wait for myself to fill the tank a little more so that I won't get as easily burned out. It is either I will take it easy for a few days or push myself, which will result it misery. I will take the less miserable route, thank you. All that talk about discipline and stuff makes me think: what good does discipline do if makes you feel miserable all the time? I mean surely there has to be a less negative feeling inducing way to do things than just pushing yourself and doing them. Anyways, that is all I wanted to vent about today. Hopefully I will wake up tomorrow or the other day feeling a bit more motivated about the stuff that generally interests me.